Add obvioushope (it's me, she added you!)

I have like 5 major projects due in two weeks. One major assignment due in a week and a half. Assignments that are due from day to day. Plus 2 or 3 final exams to write before the 16th of December. Here comes a world of NO sleep.

In my heart I know what is true.
In my heart I know what is real.
In my heart I know who I am.
In my heart I know the life that I have.
In my heart I know the truth and what reality really is.
In my heart I hope for all that is real.
My heart can be get confused.
My heart can get misguided.
My heart can get misplaced.
My heart hurts when I'm the only one expressing the feelings that tumble through my system, maybe it is different than what you thought but my heart believes in the belief of the world.
Heart, love, pain, and a world full of frustration.

The distance between reality and the shining horizon of hope seems to be forgotten.
The distance between my reality and yours seems to be a surface.
The distance that I feel within myself and everyone I once knew feels more than real. I feel the distance between us is growing. I feel the distance within myself is growing. I feel distant and alone in the grand scheme of things.
I feel distant, the shy feeling of hope and the shy feeling of confidence in relationships seems to slowly fade at the time when you need it most. It's not as if it's not there but it's shadowed b the fact that I don't have a smile worth in hell to have comfort in the world, in our relationships, in my relationships with other people.
At the surface it may seem unchanged to you but eventually getting to see the change and the great distance I will see the change in all of you, in all of us.
The distance is great.
The heart is big.
The complete and utter smile in difference is unique, is forgiving, is happiness in it's own way.

The world may not be comforting.
The world may not be considerate.
The world may not be happy at times, full of joy, or your shoulder to cry on.
That's not it's job.
You find comfort, consideration, happiness, joy and your shoulder to cry on in the people that you love.
But what if they aren't there anymore...?
What if your miles and miles away does that still mean theres a shoulder to cry on?

So I've started writing a book.....it's nothing special. But I want to give it a shot because its one of the top things on my list of things to do in my lifetime.
I have a major project due the 12th of December and it's worth 30% and it's a gigantic amount of work.
I'm bored. Tired. and Out of Luck. I'm happy but I'm extremely overwhelmed.

I miss certain things more than others.
I miss certain people more than others.
I miss certain places more than oters.
But I am disconnected from what I used to think.
And I enjoy that factor because I believe I am becoming a better, more confident individual.

The dreams that you realize are the most important are the ones that shine through, the ones that give yout he most clarity and the ones that make you the happiest.